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Oct. 17th, 2006 10:23 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
whirligigwitchI'm just going to give up on trying to catch up on LJ atm. I never, ever seem to reply to anything I want to at the moment, I always get sidetracked or see posts a few days later. And I hate not replying to people. And the fewer comments I make, the less likely I seem to be to post myself. And then I feel like I'm ignoring some posts, or some people, and losing touch.
Anyway. I feel guilty for spending much time on the computer on weeknights when I've been out at work all day and haven't spent time with or seen David or Roisin. Weekends I seem to be catching up on housework, or the stack of books I have to read (finally tracked down the mislaid library book, there are some perks to being staff!), or taking Roisin out so D gets some peace and she and I have fun, or cooking, or just puttering. But that too means I don't spend much time online. I read my Yahoogroups maybe twice a week these days, I'm well out of touch there too.
I could, I suppose, go online at lunchtimes at work and read, but I always gets nabbed by the customers when I'm sitting at a public computer, so I mostly can't be bothered. I like to sit in the staffroom and read the papers, or my book.
Anyway. I feel guilty for spending much time on the computer on weeknights when I've been out at work all day and haven't spent time with or seen David or Roisin. Weekends I seem to be catching up on housework, or the stack of books I have to read (finally tracked down the mislaid library book, there are some perks to being staff!), or taking Roisin out so D gets some peace and she and I have fun, or cooking, or just puttering. But that too means I don't spend much time online. I read my Yahoogroups maybe twice a week these days, I'm well out of touch there too.
I could, I suppose, go online at lunchtimes at work and read, but I always gets nabbed by the customers when I'm sitting at a public computer, so I mostly can't be bothered. I like to sit in the staffroom and read the papers, or my book.
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Date: 2006-10-18 12:15 am (UTC)Nah, don't fret yourself about us. I too suffered a long time from the "I want to comment, but never have time to post" syndrome. So I stopped that. Sometimes it means I never get around to acknowledging folks' milestones and trials, but I gotta pay attention to myself too!
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Date: 2006-10-19 07:01 am (UTC)Must be a lapsed Ctholic thing - I need something to feel guilty about ;-)
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Date: 2006-10-19 11:32 am (UTC)This past summer someone finally convinced me that guilt is your way of punishing yourself for doing what you wanted to do anyway, but didn't think you deserved. (I'd basically read a large book in a single day, and while the boys were fed and safe and reasonably well behaved, I felt that I would regret not having interacted with them some day in the future when I had time to read but no boys to play with. But still, reading that book at that time made me very happy, and she didn't like seeing this useless guilt thing kill my happiness.)